a hard thing about being religious is simply that i cannot do what i want. i cant look at anything i want i cant read anything i want i cant listen to anything i want. i have guidelines. things which are prohibited one hundred percent and things which are prohibited almost one hundred percent. so it makes one thing pretty clear the only thing to do really in this world is to learn about G-d from the Torah and to tell the world about it. and of course to do those mitzvot. its a hard life but someones gotta do it.